Alright, after much agonizing consideration...not really...I've decided I like Blurty better. I'm leaving this journal open and all...but I will more likely be updating at http://www.blurty.com/users/lilystar. Love you all and hope you'll still read me over there!


Ciao Blogger! : )


Well it took till 3 a.m. this morning, but the bedroom is now nice and clean. Now it's ready to be redecorated. I got tired of waiting to be able to afford new sheets, so just bought some red dye for the ones we already have...and the curtains too. So we'll see how that goes. Hopefully I'll have more luck dyeing sheets than dyeing my hair...which coincidentally I plan to attempt to fix this evening by dyeing red...Sangria actually it's called. Name something after a wine and I'm much more likely to buy your brand than the one that just named it reddish brown. ; )


It's an odd day...as usual. I woke up at 8 a.m. *shock* and am doing something completely out of character: cleaning the bedroom *BIG SHOCK*. Yes I am currently sifting through the mountains of clothes sorting things into trash/hang up/fold/garage sale piles. Aren't you proud? They're clean clothes...just so you don't think I have piles of dirty clothes sitting around, they just never get put away. I'm sure this is just fascinating stuff, but hey, it's really all I've got.

So now I have a Blurty, so now I'm all in a state of journal confusion...where do I write...where post quizzes? I really like Blurty because it has comments and friends and you can find people with common interests and shit...though it is a bit limiting with the layout...but then you can have a few pics on it...small as they may be. But now I have 2 blogs and a blurty, and I really only need 2 journals rather than 3. What to do? I don't know. It's truly a serious dilemma.

I found a bottle of red nail polish in the room and tried a dab on my finger...pretty, think I'll paint my toes.

And Jez's last post made me laugh...yes dahlink you do come off sounding like a vampire at times. <333

Well that's about all for now...shall return to my work...and talk to you all later.



Yeah I know I usually post lyrics on the other blog, but this just sums up my state of mind

"Unwell" by Matchbox 20

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why


But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind


But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away


But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell
I got 106 out of 100 on my Government test that I took last week. Thought you should know.

Went to bed at 1 a.m. last night, got up at 7:30 and was a zombie until 1:30 when I went back to bed and didn't get up until 4:30. So I basically wasted the whole day. I was going to put highlights in my hair and plant the Gardenia bush I bought...but maybe tomorrow...or I guess it's today.

I know I'm a dork...but American Idol rocked. I like all 3 of them...but Ruben singing Smile...just made me...smile. And of course Clay singing Unchained Melody...damn I give him credit for that...most people can't pull it off.

Get the new Vanity Fair. Drew Barrymore is hot.

Skip the new Cosmo. Bought it for the Brittany Murphy cover story and it's so old that she's raving about Ashton Kutcher. And the issue is full of useful tips like how to tie a scarf on your head or how to alter your personality to better please a man, also the best ways to manipulate him...and you gotta love the "For the Babe on a Budget" page that features a $79 yellow shirt or the $16 tube of lip gloss. Get real.



I shaved his head last night.

I have a hickey on my neck.

I have to go to school.

I'm still finishing my paper.

Check out Fiction Plane, they're really good.



I just got a call from my sister-in-law...the one I like...and I guess I'm going to get a new niece or nephew! : )

Now back to that damn paper...


I didn't see until just now that you quoted me twice on April 22nd! I feel so special! ; )

I'm also thrilled that someone searched for "Heath Ledger fuck" on Google and found me. Yes that makes me proud.
Feeling pretty good today...don't know quite what to make of it. And here's a weird one...I've started a strange habit of sleeping nights. Have no idea if it will last...but the last 2 nights...in bed at 11:30, up at 8 a.m. There's a problem with this though...usually when I wake up, the day's half over and the good part, night, is coming soon. This way, I don't have a clue what to fucking do with myself. First I washed the dishes, then I planted some flower seeds I bought...then just took sexual quizzes the rest of the morning...feel free to steal them and post your own results...hint hint...yes I'm nosy. But tomorrow...what will I do? I've often wondered what normal people who are actually conscious during daylight hours do. I still wonder. Oh well...the fact remains that I feel good! Last night my brother in law...in law...or something like that...stayed the night...he's cool...it was fun. We often have strange young men sleeping on our couch...take that for whatever you think it means. I'm in a mood...could you tell? I think I will now download some music...I want more Jack Johnson songs...and want to check out 50 Cent and also get some other various songs I've been wanting...I miss having that little info thing where I would put my song of the moment or whatever you'd call it...maybe I'll figure out a way to put it in here somewhere. I guess I'd better go...this must be terribly boring since I'm sort of just thinking out loud.

Ta ta


Feed the fool
A piece of the pie
Make a fool of his system
Make a fool of his mind
Give him bottles of lies
And maybe he'll find
His place in heaven
Cause he might just die

I really dig Jack Johnson.
"Hi Linesh,
Tks for ur jokes, do call me on 26****46 after 2000 hrs, as I am planning a big Bash for my new launch "Bablu the Bakra", I May
require ur expertise
bye for now

I found this fascinating message ^ in my inbox...see, Linesh is my Pakistani "friend" who e-mailed me off my MSN profile a few months back asking if the photo of Marilyn was me. The same darling who asked me to marry him in our first chat and said the infamous line "dirty girl tell me to get nacked." Apparently Anu was one of many to whom he forwarded some joke and Anu somehow replied to everyone to whom Linesh had sent the joke. Hence why I got it. Hmm, I guess it's not really that funny, but I was rolling. I'm weird that way.

Moving on...

School went well yesterday despite my procrastination. I studied for the exam in the morning right before I left and I think I did fine. Should really just make a habit of doing that. It would cut back on the stress. Also turned in my paper. I am such a good student. *cough* So...I don't know what it was yesterday...but people guys kept talking to me. I was in a hurry and didn't even wash my hair...had it in a ponytail. Maybe less effort is the way to go. This rather cute black guy in my govt. class came and sat next to me and was asking me all about me. It was rather nice. : ) He asked what my major was and I think it freaked him out a little...he was like...so what's my disorder? lol He told me I look like a Psychologist because of my glasses...I wasn't sure whether that was a compliment or not. I usually keep to myself in that class because I don't know anyone...so it made it more pleasant. Then in my science class...got the test from last week back and it was a C. But I was kind of expecting it...the class sucks...I'll probably get a B for the whole thing...and just be happy it's over. At least I have friends in that class. So one of my friends is graduating this month and going off to a 4 year college. And my best friend is asking me...am I planning to get a BA? A Masters? A Doctorate? Hell if I know...I certainly intend to go as far as I can afford to...that's basically what it depends on. I'm completely fine with doing the work that it will take. She acted surprised that I want to go that far...she's like...that's going to take a long time...you're going to have to write really hard papers. No shit. Did she think I didn't know that? Oh fuck. I hate it when people I love underestimate me. Like...I start to doubt myself and all sorts of shitty things. But it's ok. She shall see. : )

So anyway...saw X2 over the weekend...and I must say...that movie really did rock. Definitely recommend coughing up the $8.50 or whatever it is where you live to see it on the big screen. I envy Jean Gray(sp?) to have Wolverine and Cyclops in love with her. *fans self* And Mystique...I liked her in the first...and even more in this one. I would like to have her power...change who I am at will...yes...that is so something I would have fun with.

Au revoir mes jolis.



I really don't know what to do with myself...am now looking at Drunkadelic Porn. But now really, if you had a choice...Watergate...or ...Porn...which would YOU research? Mmmmhmmm...thought so. Miss May is quite lovely...but Miss April...my goodness I have a terrible urge to slap her. Perky bitch.
Well you are being blessed with this update not because I particularly have anything to say, but because I have schoolwork that I absolutely have to get done today, and so...I must find some way to put it off. On Monday in my Government class I have an essay due as well as an exam. And since I certainly won't be doing this over the weekend, I have...right now. I did start the paper yesterday, have about a page and a half of six done. : / Writing about Watergate...scandal, corruption, right-wing conspiracy...great stuff. Anyhow, that explains the "studious" mood...which is a crock...
Happy to report that my tummy is feeling better, in case you were, you know, on the edge of your seat worrying about it. Large amounts of hot tea really does do wonders.
Now I'm stalling........
............ok...I must do what has to be done.



This amused me and I felt I must share. I have some program that I picked up on my browser where it checks out the page you're viewing and gives links to other sites you might be interested in based on the content of the page. For this blog page the links it gives are: Sleep, Love, Management, Vibrators, Home, Prozac. I suppose that pretty well says it all. That's either very funny or very sad...depending how you look at it...or maybe depending whether you're high or not...
Yes Jez, your blog is indeed "the shit". ; ) And, try as we might, we can't all live up to that standard of genious that you have now set for all bloggers. So I'd suggest to Maddox that he not read blogs if they annoy him so. Even so, what he wrote was rather entertaining. And I don't think I've ever written about the quality of a sandwich...though I would never completely rule out the possibility. I'm talking like a crazy person...which would mean I'm talking like myself. Ok then. Eh...I'm not really feeling well...having some sort of tummy pains...and I'm on antibiotics which aren't helping the tummy any at all. Because you wanted to know that...yes well you know, a blog is just a journal...it isn't going to be sensational and thrilling all the time...a lot of trivial things go on in people's lives that they just want to write down somewhere.

On a more serious note: Christina Aguilera and Britney Spears have dyed their blonde hair dark. Well Christina went black, Britney went with a less gutsy brown, but still. I really wish those girls would stop copying me. ; ) No, I don't think you realize what this means. This means that every little skank/ho/slutbucket will now dye their hair dark. It will now be slutty and common to have dark hair. This is bad. I liked not being the trend. Oh my, I can't believe I visited their web sites to find those pics...I feel all Dirrrty now. *groan* I'm in a weird-ass mood again. Forgive moi?

Oh Anne, you know I'll be your naughty pussy anyday. rawr. (^o^) Hmmm...that's a fucked pussy...but you gotta give me some points for effort. And with that, I'm outta here.

Nite xoxo


Had to go to a funeral today...for the lady I mentioned before...well yeah it was sad...she was just the sweetest person. Anyway...it was kind of cool because our friend Chad who lives a ways away now came to visit and wants us to go to the beach for parties and learn how to surf this summer...so that could be a lot of fun. I'm a little drugged up from the stuff the doc gave me...he gave me a muscle relaxant to help me sleep...it worked great last night...so hopefully it will continue to. I definitely feel niiice. ; ) Well that's all that happened today I guess. So I'll be bloggin again soon.



Well I get to go to the doctor tomorrow...er...today. Woohoo. : / Have to ask for help with like 5 different things...poor man. One of which is SLEEPING! In case you couldn't figure that out from the fact that I'm posting at fucking 1:15 in the morning. Then I get to go to the dentist next Tuesday. And I have a test in my class from hell on Monday...which I have not yet studied for. And I have 2 papers due a week from Monday. Oh the stress. And aw shit...the Lakers lost again...Shaq needs to pull his head outta his arse...and that's all I have to say about that. But I um...finally got to chat with "Mr. Gere" again today...and well, it was awesome and I refuse to feel guilty. It had been 4 months and somehow I think he makes me feel less depressed because I was thinking about it and when I met him was when it started getting better after the last bad spell, and now this year...since we hadn't talked...it had gotten quite awful again...and well...he beats Prozac anyday...so...that's that.




Ok...obviously don't take anything in my last post seriously. I was puking it all up like an hour later...great night. ; ) I added the link to Cate's Journal. Also added a link to another blurty journal...I don't know her, just thought it was amusing. And I suppose that's about it for now.



Oh wow I'm so BUZZED...thius promises to be an interesting post...and I'm not correcting typos because it's more fucking dfun that way! I've drunk nearly a whole bottle of champagene(best stuff ever invented..howe coiuld you possibly not love the french??) Did I mention cha,m=-ane make sme horny? Where's Heath when you need him? Or even Jesse...dammnit, you should have stayed up! I am so gone...I would never post this in my right mind...but I'm not in my right mind! woo! Nobody is on to talk to me...this sucks! :'( Anyway, yeah, my weekend...I hadc sushi 2nights in a row bvecause it's so damn GOOD! But I want to learn to make it at home! Anywway...I ditched school yesterday to go see Anger Management...funny shi thast was...but thenanything Jack is in...you gotta love! Heerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre's Johnny! ; ) hehe Yeah well...it was funny...and Heather Grahjam was actually quite funny and hot in it! OMG these typos are crazy...I'm leaving them for YOUR (the veiwere's) enjoyment! OMG I never say OMG... ok well...yes I bought a cabinet/shelves thing for the bathroom and my husband implied that I needed his hel;p and should wait for him to take a look at it...so I promptly did it myself because I don't like being treated as if I'm not competent...I am not a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere!...which probably will make you laugh with the qway this post is..byut who cares...I'm having fun...anyway I'm very proud that I put it toghtehr...but then I managed to drop a piece putti git in the bathrpoon so I ended up needing help! How embarrassing...but I still think I made a poinbt. Yes well anything intelligent I had to say is not coming to me...so I'm going to fuck odff and be dsad because nobody is online! Mys life definti;y sucks. But I'm dso gigglty right now! It would be so fun if somebody would \come online...hint hint...ok I'm going...lovew you all!!!!!! Nite!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Got my new swimsuit today...it's so pretty...it makes me look like Marilyn...in my mind anyway. ; ) Red halter top with a little tie across the cleavage...sexxxy! And I have updated and reposted my Amazon wishlist so you can look at it and laugh and say "she thinks somebody is going to buy her that?" I've done all this because I absolutely despise our culture's obsessive consumerism. Because I am a hypocrite. There is nothing I hate more than a hypocrite. What can I say? Well on that fucked up note, I'm off to enjoy my weekend...hopefully. You wonderful people please do the same. : )